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Post by Willhellminna "Minna" Theoreux on Dec 27, 2011 13:51:47 GMT
Minna sat alone in the courtyard. Maryn was with Brent and because of that, she didn’t want to disturb them. They were married and needed time to be together. That’s what married people do, right? She sighed in frustration. She recalled Steven once again and a jolt of pain went through her entire body as if she was being electrocuted for a crime she didn’t do. It was painful and there was nothing she could do about it.
Steven was miles away and stupid Brent still hasn’t given her the address. This caused her to sigh again. Her life will, not doubt about it, be full of sorrow and hurt. “Is it too much to ask to just have someone who understands me despite my cold and cruel side? Someone who would encourage me and support me in every idea and decision I am going to make?” she asked the wind.
Her voice was full of sorrow and regret but mostly regret. Regret for having the one person she likes slip through her hands all because she was too bloody proud to admit that she liked someone who wasn’t a snake like her.
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Post by Jaminson Redpaw on Dec 27, 2011 14:12:19 GMT
James briskly walked into the courtyard, fiercely chewing and sucking on a sugar quill. He was shaking and sweating in the cold air as he kept on attacking the quill with as much enthusiasm as a hungry cat ravaging a mouse. Finally, James angily put the sweet in his pocket and took out a cigar in its place.
"I'm glad that it's break right now and no one else is here..." James mumbled to himself as he cut the tip of his cigar and lit it with his wand with diffculty as he his whole body was shaking heavily.
James took a deep breath of his cigar and slowly let it out, sighing in relief as his body calmed down. Suddenly, he noticed that Minna Theoreux had been in front of him the whole time. After taking a few puffs of smoke he greeted his younger colleauge.
"Hello Ms. Theoreux." James said with a weak smile "How has your day been? You don't look too swell."
He gave Minna a concerned look. She seemed pretty sad and depressed and it was bothering him. James hated to see others in pain, whether it be physical or emotional.
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Post by Willhellminna "Minna" Theoreux on Dec 27, 2011 14:22:09 GMT
She turned and saw Redpaw a few meters away and at the same time, the tears she was trying to fight back came flowing down her cheek. She was screwed but she didn’t care. She was tired of pretending to be the strong and emotionless person she had been for the last years of her life. She didn’t know what else to do but she wasn’t really thinking anymore.
She stood up and ran to hug Redpaw and just sobbed on his chest. She cried her heart out and she didn’t know when the tears were going to end. “I’m s-so sorry… I am not swell… I never have been.. and I might never be well… ever!!” she continued to cry. She was just too tired now and she didn’t want to pretend to be strong when she knew she wasn’t.
“I’m s-sorry… I just need—“ she didn’t finish as her tears and cries took the better of her. She was showing her true self to James Redpaw, someone she doesn’t even know. Not even Maryn saw her in that total depression.
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Post by Jaminson Redpaw on Dec 27, 2011 14:36:22 GMT
James was extremely surprised as Minna ran up and started sobbing on his chest. He quickly recovered, however, and returned her hug while dropping the cigar to the ground and putting out its flames.
"Sush..." James whispered comfortingly stroking her hair, his fatherly, protective side starting to take over "What's wrong my dear?"
He slowly backed up to a wall and leaned on it, allowing Minna to lean on him. James hugged her closer while whispering comforting words and trying to dry her tears with his cloak.
"It's okay... Cry all you want." James sadly gazed down at the sobbing figure, feeling her pain.
He was sensitive to other people's emotions and tended to try and feel what other people felt. But it had been awhile since he had someone cry on him. The last person actually was Tania. About 11 years ago.
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Post by Willhellminna "Minna" Theoreux on Dec 27, 2011 14:46:34 GMT
“I am soooo tired, James. So tired of pretending to be strong when I’m not… So tired of getting hurt again and again… Seeing Maryn with Brent makes me feel so left out all the time… I screwed up when I let Steven slip through my hands… But there’s nothing I can do about it now… He’s so far away and I don’t even have the courage to face him…” she continued to sob.
She leaned on him for support because she couldn’t stand alone anymore. She was that tired. “Is it too much to ask to just have someone who understands me despite my cold and cruel side? Someone who would encourage me and support me in every idea and decision I am going to make?” she asked him.
Her voice was shaky and was mixed with sobs and tears. She cried and cried in his chest. For some reason, it felt alright. Like nothing was wrong.
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Post by Jaminson Redpaw on Dec 29, 2011 12:24:41 GMT
"No. No it isn't. It's just hard to fufill." James replied softly "But, if you want, I'm willing to help you. Only if you truly want my help and understanding. Otherwise it would be useless..."
James spoke truthfully. He really did want to help his younger colleague but when James spoke he felt... something. And it sort of scared him, making his voice unintentionally tense.
"Move on Redpaw!" a voice shouted inside his head "And face the truth while you're at it! Stop feigning ignorance, stop ignoring your feelings. You know it would only make Tania unhappy to see you like this!"
James felt guilty but ignored the small voice though he did agree with it, deep down inside. It had been awhile since he'd heard it but he ignored it everytime.
"There's still other fish in the sea." James said sadly "Don't waste your life fawning over one person or you'll miss what's closer to you. Don't end up like me..."
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Post by Willhellminna "Minna" Theoreux on Dec 29, 2011 12:34:40 GMT
Minna just kept sobbing. "It's hard... I have always admired Steven from a far. I was the typical Slytherin back then. I always thought that things will be alright when we finished school... But then... I was still scared. When Steven confessed... I panicked. And instead, I turned him down and thought he'd come after me a few years later... But he didn't!! And now I'm regretting the hell lot now." she screamed as she sobbed harder.
She really was crying her heart out. And she didn't care who was with her. She was too tired of what other would think. "I just wanted someone who would understand me despite my mood swings and cruel remarks... S-someone who would encourge me and support me with the decisions I make... That's all I ever wanted, James. I never asked for a wealthy family nor a successful career... None of it matters to me... All I want is to have a family of my own."
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Post by Jaminson Redpaw on Dec 29, 2011 12:56:52 GMT
James was starting to get close to tears as well. Minna was reminding him of himself after Tania died. He felt alone, helpless, unstable and even delusional. He remembered the days when he'd try to forget her but that only ended up in tears and illusions. That time was very painful and depressing for the History of Magic professor.
"You'll have me. I'll support you until you have someone else." James stated strongly "Even after you have someone else I'll be there for you, silently helping you in the background."
James stood up and gave Minna a handkerchief and a sugar quill. He felt a bit flustered and pressured, mainly because of the small voice in his head.
"I think I should get going now Minna..." James started to say "I'll leave you to think in peace for a bit. See you tomorrow then."
James started to leave the courtyard to go to his classroom, taking out another cigar and lighting it again.
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Post by Willhellminna "Minna" Theoreux on Dec 29, 2011 13:04:37 GMT
Minna stretched out her hand and caught James' arm before he could walk any further. She was in shock but knew better than to let another chance slip by her hands.
"If you think that I'm going to let you go after hearing you say the words I have longed to hear, then you have completely lost your bloody mind!" she said with conviction.
"Even if your not Steven, you said you'd encourage and support me... Even if... Even IF Steven comes and takes me...Which is a long shot... But we both can learn right?... Liking and understanding oone another..." she trailed off, wanting to hear what James will say next.
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Post by Jaminson Redpaw on Dec 29, 2011 13:20:29 GMT
James stopped, surprised by the hand that made him stop in his tracks. He took a long drag on his cigar bfore exhaling the smoke and replying.
"I've lost my mind many years ago." James replied slowly and thoughtfully "Yup. If you are then I am but just be prepared for cigars, chocolate rogs and sugar quills. Sweets replace my need for cigars and cigars calm me down."
James chuckled a bit and took another drag on the cigar. Thanks to the cigar he as able to live with the emotions buliding up insi of him but ignored them.
"So, I guess it's a promise!" James fixed Minna's hair and gave her a light kiss on the forehead "You support me, I support you. I support you no matter what. Right?"
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Post by Willhellminna "Minna" Theoreux on Dec 29, 2011 14:18:34 GMT
For the first time in a very long time, Minna smiled for a man. She nodded and smiled. "I can take sugar crazes and cigar addictions... Just make sure you'll be able to stand up to my bad moods, cold stares, and cruel retaliations..." she smiled so sincerely as if she and James just got out from a very huge fight.
"Yes... A promise... I support you... You support me... And we'll see where this whole ordeal will lead us both..." she said with a warm smile. A smile that might be on her face often now, if James will be as supportive as he promised he would.
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Post by Jaminson Redpaw on Dec 29, 2011 17:15:11 GMT
"I'll try my best!" James quietly chuckled and grinned from ear to ear "Yeah. Let's hope the future won't be too cruel, eh?"
"Well, for now, let's just enjoy the present before we experience the future." James suggested with a smile "C'mon let's grab some dinner. I'll make it myself!"
James grabbed Minna's hand and walked to the kitchens with a smile on his face. But he felt something tug at his heart while doing so. Something that felt right and wrong at the same time. James knew that he had to face the truth at some point in time but for now he brushed it off and enjoyed the present.
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Thank yooouuu!! <3