Now You Know, Please Don't Hate Me [CLOSED]

[Aiden James Murphy]

Aiden had left the other room and tried to catch his breath. Red was an idiot! How could he just blurted it out? It wasn't how Aiden thought he'd tell Jackie. It wasn't that way. But it was done now. Red had said it and he fled. Aiden slapped himself. He actually fled. Then he turned and saw Jackie. Jackie followed him. Aiden couldn't think straight now.

"Jackie... I... Uhm.." Aiden was trying to lok for the words to say to Jackie without sounding stupid. Hell, he already sounded stupid. He took a deep breath and sighed. "Yes, Jackie. I have feelings for you. It started... I don't know when it started really..." Aiden said as he looked down on the floor.

"It feels like it wants to burst out my chest really... I wanted to tell you but I was scared. Scared that you'd hate me and leave me..." he said and looked up at Jackie. "I'd die a thousands deaths if you leave me Jackie.... I love you so much that it hurts me to think of what would happen if you found out. That you might hate me and leave. To never talk to me again." Aiden said, his voice was shakey and scared. This was new to him.

To care for someone more than he cared for Brent before was a new thing. But he always loved Jackie. It just took him a long time to realize and understand it.

[Jackie Damiano Piazza]

Jackie's mouth was oddly dry. He really did not know what to do. No one had ever really told him they had feelings because who would like him? Jackie always assumed there was nothing likeable about him after two failed relationships. And that was before his personality darkened into what it was today.

"Look... Aiden... no matter what happens, I'll never leave you and as for hating you? Don't be stupid." Jackie forced himself to chuckle. It was in a higher pitch than normal, it betrayed his nerves. "I just... I-I.." He felt himself stutter, so he stopped, swallowed, closed his eyes and took a breath. "I just don't know what to say."

What could he even say in response to this? His fucking best friend was in love with him? Jackie loved him too but it couldn't be in the same way, could it? No. It couldn't. He had never loved. All those emotions were pointless. You'd get attached to someone just to be cast aside by them like yesterday's Daily Prophet when they'd had enough. It was painful. Jackie didn't do that stuff. What he felt for Aiden was special, very special, he had never felt anything quite like this before for anyone, but it couldn't be that kind of love.

"Come here, you." Jackie sighed and wrapped his arms tightly around Aiden. A friendly embrace. A close, tight one. But friendly nonetheless. Even if in his stomach did pool infinite emotions. "You know I don't... I've never... Its just... I can't. I-I love you too but... I-It can't be like that. Not in that way."

[Aiden James Murphy]

Aiden sighed. he knew that Jackie wouldn't feel how he felt. And It was alright. Aiden would ask for more than what Jackie could give him. He smiled and pulled Jackie to a close hug. "It's alright, Jackie. I'd accept anything if it's from you." Aiden said. It was the first time he said those words.

"You don't have to worry about how I feel. As long as your happy, I'll be happy as well." Aiden told him. "I'd stay with you no matter what and will not regret staying with you even if you won't love me back the way I love you." he added.

Aiden pulled away and looked at Jackie. he didn't understand why but he was happy even if Jackie didn't love him back too. "I'd accept anything from you Jackie." Aiden said as he kissed Jackie's head.

[Jackie Damiano Piazza]

Jackie didn't know what he had done to deserve a friend quite like Aiden. He was so selfless it was hard to believe. He'd just poured out his feelings for him, Jackie had carefully shunned them, and yet still here he stood, willing to bare it and carry on. Jackie almost felt bad for not being able to of given Aiden the response he so desired. He would gladly take him in his arms, press his lips against his cheek and murmur sweet nothings in his ear.

Wait... gladly? Jackie raised his eyebrows at nothing in particular as he stared over Aiden's shoulder. No... not gladly. He wouldn't... couldn't... do that.

"I love you, Aid. I really do. You're the only person that's ever been there for me when I need someone. I can tell you everything, even secrets that would make skin crawl for the majority. I feel... safe with you. I don't need anything else but you." Jackie sighed and wrapped his arms tighter. "But I don't think its that kind of love. I don't think I can... y'know."

The last thing he wanted now was for Aiden to skitter off away from him to lick the wounds of a spurned heart. Aiden had just been rejected by Brent and now to of been rejected by Jackie... the Italian felt terrible. He wanted to love Aiden. He really, honestly, truefully did.

[Aiden James Murphy]

Aiden smiled and tried to chuckle. He pulled Jackie close to him. "Ssshhhhh... It's alright Jackie... I'll keep you safe... I promise.. No one will ever hurt you again." He said as he held Jackie. "I'll always be here for you... You can tell me anything and everything you want to tell me and I will take them with me until i die." Aiden told Jackie.

"Always remember that you will have me beside you until you make me go away..." Aiden said as he gave Jackie another kiss on the head and smiled. "Seriously, the only way for me to leave you is for you to tell me to go away. That's all..." Aiden added.

Aiden was in pain. Even Jackie rejected him. It hurt, and it hurt really bad. But there was nothing he could do. "i love you Jackie... Just remember that... Nothing will make me love you less even if you don't love me back the way I love you." he told Jackie sincerely.

[Jackie Damiano Piazza]

Jackie's eyes flickered to a brief close on feeling Aiden press his lips to his forehead. It was nice. He wasn't going to lie. Jackie felt as though as he was the one who had to do the comforting but he couldn't bring himself to do it. He felt as though that would just drive the knife right into Aiden's little heart.

"I am never going to send you away, Aiden. Never." Jackie tilted his head up to look at his hurt friend. "You've been with me so many years... you're stuck with me now. You should know that." Because it was true. Jackie was used to just having Aiden around as his sole company, his sole friend, his sole everything. Nothing and no one could ever replace him or what he felt for him. "I just... I'm sorry... Sorry I can't give you what you really want. Maybe... someday..."

Jackie sighed and pressed his face into Aiden's chest. He didn't know why he felt so bad about this. Something in his chest was actually tickling but painfully. It was like before when he saw Aiden with Red and Green but... worse. Magnified.

What Jackie didn't expect was for a certain anger brewing inside him to bubble up again. Alexander. He had caused Aiden pain. And Jackie wanted to make his friend feel better. So... when he added the two together, he knew what he had to do.

"Aiden... don't think this is because I feel awkward or anything but... I have to go soon... things to do." He mumbled. He knew Aiden probably didn't want him to disappear off to do this but Jackie felt as though he had to. "You're welcome to come but... I don't think you should... its one of those things that I like to do alone." Lose his head. Make someone else pay for it. Jackie at his worst and weakest.

[Aiden James Murphy]

Aiden didn't care. As long as he got to stay with Jackie, he was fine with it. "And I won't regret being stuck with you.. Forever..." Aiden said and stroked Jackie's head. Yes, Aiden would do anything to stay with Jackie. he'd kill to stay with him.

Then he pulled away. "I don't know where you going but I want you to be safe..." Aiden said as he kissed Jackie's head. "Please, don't do anything dangerous. I'd kill anyone and everyone who'd hurt you! Remember that." Aiden told him seriously.

then he left the room where Jackie was. He didn't want to see Jackie leave. Simply because Aiden had an idea where he was going. Bu the didn't want to stop Jackie. The Italian man had to do it or he'd go crazy. As much as it pain Aiden, he had to let Jackie do what he wanted to do.

[Jackie Damiano Piazza]

Aiden really needn't worry. Jackie wasn't about to go foolishly get himself hurt. He knew what he was doing. It was maybe a bit dangerous but not for him, more like for Alexander. Poor, stupid little man had gotten himself into trouble poisoning Aiden. He was going to take care with this. He was going to go slow, make him suffer, regret every single action and cry and wail and sob until Jackie might take mercy on him. Excitement tickled his stomach. He was going to have fun.

"I'll take care, don't you worry yourself." Jackie said to Aiden's retreating back. He made no move to stop him, even if he felt as though he should. Jackie sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose for a moment. Hopefully he hadn't messed things up with his friend despite his reassurance that everything was fine still. Jackie watched the door close and chose then to disapparate in search of Alexander. He'd try his house first. The foolish boy was probably there.