Musings Of The Musical Genius

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

October 30th, Sunday

According to me, it is not normal for a twenty-seven year old man to keep a diary like I have been advised to do. So, I have chosen to keep a record of my personal musings instead. If you are reading this now, start running because there is no doubt that I will find you and alter you memory.

Apparently I 'talk too much and should write down my thoughts instead' which is a load of nonsense but I suppose I'll do it if my chatting gets on people's nerves. (Why would it anyway? I'm just being friendly.) No, they're probably too full of themselves and would rather hear their own voice drone on and on about something that disinterests me.

Halloween is coming up, it is tomorrow in fact. Of course I'll be dressing accordingly again; I dress up every year. Last year, I was a ghost but it didn't work very well because nobody could see me. I got some pretty good reactions out of people though. This year, I'll be something visible. A vampire. Yes, yes, that sounds good. I do have some excellent ideas don't I?

It's almost Halloween...that reminds me of a song from my band, actually...

Everybody scream
Everybody scream
It's almost Halloween
Do the trick or treat
Do the trick or treat
It's almost Halloween
Everybody scream

~The Musical Genius~[/size]

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

November 19th, Saturday

According to me, it is still not normal for a twenty-seven year old man to keep a diary. And this is still just a collection of my personal musings. I felt the need to point this out to you. Yes, you. I don't know who you are but you've been taking a peak in here, haven't you? Watch out, if I find you I really will use the cruciatus curse on you. That is not an empty threat; trust me. I will find you. I will torture you. You will perish.

So, Mystery Person, I'm sure you're wondering how on earth I found out you got your grubby mitts on my musings in the first place. Last night, I placed this on the left side of my desk, between my quill and my book. When I came back in the morning, it had somehow moved to the other side of my book; closer to the right side of my desk. Now, if that is not suspicious, I don't know what is.

I have my eye on you, Mystery Person...


~The Musical Genius~[/size][/color]

[Belaya Drocellmeyer]

Ahem... Dear Professor McKinney,

Please don't curse me because I didn't read anything important. Mainly because you have nothing important in this musing book thing. I already know you had the band and all.... Also, don't ask me how I got to your journal (yes I shall just call this a journal) before and now.

Sincerely,
Belaya Volkchik Trancy Drocellmeyer

P.S. Glamoura is with me now and he probably wants to say "I hate you" to you. So Glamoura says I hate you.

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

November 29th, Tuesday

Belaya, you won't be able to read what I'm writing now because my musing book which is not a journal is now safely hidden away. Somewhere nosey students like you won't be able to find it. You're lucky that I haven't yet written anything of great importance yet or I would be yelling at you right now. And I hate Glamoura too.

I'm still finding it hard to believe that this record of my personal musings was intruded by a fourth year.

Anyway, now I know that this it safe from prying eyes, I can write down things that I don't want people to see...

Mission Rescue Ribbity II

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Ribbity II [/color][/ul]

Objective:
Own Ribbity II

Method:
1. Gain Ribbity II's trust.
2. Steal Ribbity II from Maryn McKinney's office.
3. Send Maryn McKinney a note, informing her that her toad is in a better place.
4. Wait to be found.
5. Be found.
6. Convince Maryn McKinney to give co-ownership over Ribbity II.
7. Own Ribbity II.

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~The Musical Genius~[/font][/size]

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

January 3rd, Tuesday

This entry into my musing book is dedicated the second awesomest person on Earth. (if you were wondering, the awesomest person on Earth is me. I bet you already knew that though.) Anyway, the second awesomest person on Earth has to be my buddy Chase Michael Jackson. Some people would think 'hey Brent, you value your friend more than your wife?' And I guess that's a perfectly reasonably question to ask. But I don't. I just think Chase is awesomer than Maryn it doesn't mean I'd pick him if, for example, if I could only choose one person to live and the other person would die. I don't even know who I'd pick in that situation, to be honest...

I'd better cut to the Chase here, or I'll never have enough time to write down my musings before that incrediblly dull staff meeting soon. (Did you notice what I did there? That's why I'm the awesomest.)

So, yeah, Chase is the drummer for OVYCSO and is also a founding member of the band. I can't believe that band's been together for thirteen years now, it's unbelievable! And I've know Chase since I moved to England and that was practically twenty years ago so I guess you could say he knows me better than anyone else. Even Maryn. And that must be hard. People are always telling me I'm arrogant and annoying and too loud and have a bad temper and selfish and... You get the point. For Chase to stick by my side for twenty years must've been a tough job then. I remember ages ago we co-wrote a song called Camisado. It's about his dad. Sometimes I think my parents were fucked up, then I think about Chase's dad and I know I'm lucky. At least his mother made up for it. She's awesome and makes awesome cookies.

Then there was that time where Chase and I were together... Y'know like, boyfriends. I was sixteen and he was fourteen. I think it lasted a year but we don't really speak about that now. It's way too awkward. He stood by me too during that time of my life where everything was upside down and I got high almost every night and drunk every morning. I thank him for that, for not ditching me even though I was a real dick back then.

That's Chase for you. The second awesomest person on Earth.


~The Musical Genius~[/color][/size]

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

January 8th, Sunday

Maybe there's something I forgot to mention in my previous entry. You know; the one about Chase and awesomeness and stuff? It's something I've really only just admitted to thinking myself and it's quite embarrassing.

Scrap that. It's totally humiliating[/u].

I try to play it cool, look relaxed, don't freak out. But, most of the time, that really doesn't work. I end up blushing and stuttering and generally making a fool of myself. And, take it from me, Brent McKinney is not a fool. Not usually, anyway. Neither is Chase Jackson. He must sense something's not quite right. It's fucking obvious. I'm sat there feeling awkward and going red and trying to deal with the fact I'm finding my male best friend attractive.

I'm straight.

I'm married.

Chase is my buddy. Just my buddy.

This whole thing is just stupid.

Seriously, I don't want to think all of these ridiculous things, at least I don't think I want to think of them... But, I don't know, just shut up for a second, will you? I know you're not making any noise but just shut up because... because I said so and I'm confused and I really need a beer right now. Make that several beers actually.

Oh yeah. I did something else stupid. I told Maryn I don't think I'm 100% straight which, to be honest, isn't the best thing to tell your wife now, is it? I didn't say 'I think Chase is hot' though. That really would be the end of our marriage and I don't want that. I love Maryn it's just that Chase is there and he's always been there and I'm going to shut up now because my head is killing me.


^How is that not hot?

~The Musical Genius~[/size][/color][/font]

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

January 17th, Tuesday

I may or may not have done something -okay, a couple of things- completely stupidly awesome and ridiculous. I'm not going to tell you.

I can tell you want to know, dear musing book. The Musical Genius is aware of all things.

So. I put all of that stuff about Chase, as you can see. Or you would be able to see if you had eyes but you don't because you're a book but that's not the point. Shut up and let me get on. Yeah. I kind of told him that stuff. I didn't actually tell him like 'Hey, Chase, I'm in love with you and think you're, like, really hot'. That would have probably been taking things too far. Majorly too far. And I don't take things too far... Actually I do but I didn't this time. I know, it's just so hard to believe.

I did something stupid. And dangerous. But so totally worth it in the end. I kissed him.

Yeah. You read that correctly. I, Brent McKinney, kissed him, Chase Jackson. That's how I explained all that stuff to him, it was easier that way. It gets better though.

Then he kissed me and I was all like 'woaaah, wasn't expecting that' at first but then I kissed him back and blew him away with my awesome kissing skills. Then I kissed him again. And straddled him. It's a lot for my mind to process.

I think I need to go and write some lyrics now.


~The Musical Genius~[/size]

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

February 4th, Saturday

I'm not gonna go on like a teenage girl again, I promise. BUT I LOVE HIM!

Yeah. Anyway, Musing Book, I'll tell you a little about the other two second awesomest people on Earth: Reid Rutherford and Hunter Diskin. Reidy works at the Ministry so I barely ever see him and Hunty at St Mungo's... It's a shame they don't work with Chay and me at Hogwarts because if they did we could have band meetings all of the time. And that would be so awesome... it would make my life complete. Well, if it can get any more complete.

Ooh. It could be way more complete now that I think about it. The whole I'm a cheating, lying scumbag thing doesn't make me feel all that good about myself. I'll shut up about that, I'm talking about the joint-second awesomest people on Earth. Actually, I guess I'm talking about the band. Or will be once I stop rambling.

Odd Virtues You Can't Sweat Out... I must've been in my second year when we formed, which means Hunter, Reid and Chase were first years. That was another annoying thing; me being in the year above them all. Especially annoying when they were all in their seventh year together and I was out of school and trying to deal with the fact I'd cut myself off from my whole family. That year was tough on me, really tough. I hate to think of it.

But the year after that shitty one... wow. That year was... I can't even begin to describe how amazing it was. Turn Off the Lights did it for us, it made us big.

For a bit.

Then it all died down, we were a one hit wonder. Now nobody remembers us, and barely anyone remembers our song. It was nice while it lasted though, the fame, the fortune. I want it back. The crowds we play for now, they're too small. I want more. I want it all.

We're gonna do it, somehow, we're gonna have another big hit and everyone will remember us.


~The Musical Genius~[/size]

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

February 20th, Monday

I was just reminded of the old days again. Y'know, when I was at Hogwarts. It's scary how much I've changed in ten years though. Just saying.

'Cause something else's gone wrong for me. I'm struggling with this whole whatever you want to call it with my wife and my best friend but now... It's just. This is too much. But I have Chase, I know he's always there.

A little first year turned everything upside down when he gave me a letter from my dad. Then I found out that my parents are dead because of me (Chase says it's not my fault but whatever. It is.) and now a have a little brother. Yeah. I know. They didn't tell me I had a brother! Then they fucking gave him away! Then they died on us. Great, isn't it? My life's just couldn't get any better.

So, my little brother Tommy; I don't wanna care about him but, I can't help it, I do. I can't help but notice how many detentions he's getting and how many classes he's skipping. It reminds me of myself. I started off at Hogwarts as a reasonably good kid but then, gradually, my behaviour just went down hill. I swear I got like... Three OWLs then no NEWTs whatsoever.

I'm so glad I decided to grow up and realise what I failure I was.


^Look, it's little Brent!

~The Musical Genius~[/color][/font]

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

June 2nd, Saturday

Hey, Musing Book... it's been a while and let's just say a lot of things have happened during that while...

So, blah blah blah, I get divorced and make it official with Chase, you get to picture. And, I'll just tell you know, I even had the guts to warn him that this wasn't all going to go along flawlessly like he'd dreamed it would be. In the end, I was always going to be the one to mess up. I am the one who's just messed up and managed to get a student caught up in this too.

If I get the chance to apologise then of course I will, and I'll mean it. I should've stopped myself. I should've thought about what I was doing before it was too late. But no, I don't work like that. My relationships don't work like that.

Just go and blame Maxwell for kissing me first or something. I honestly don't need all this right now. At least it's not as if I genuinely really like him though, not this time. And I'm not married either. Those are about the only positives in the situation.

At least he can't say he didn't see this one coming...


But everything'll turn out alright in the end... right?

~The Musical Genius~[/color][/font]