Post by Reid Rutherford on May 7, 2012 3:46:47 GMT
I've decided to start writing my thoughts in a journal. This is the first time I've done so, so it might be a little awkward. What am I saying. I'm telling myself about it being awkward that I'm doing this. Maybe I am going a little crazy.
My thoughts have mostly been on my best friend turned...boyfriend? A man named Alexander Jay Torres. For the longest time he was just my best friend, well one of three. The other two aren't really important right now. Anyways, Alex for a long time was just one of the guys, one of his band mates. It was only after Hogwarts that I noticed how amazingly handsome the man was. I developed a sort of crush for him. I never told him this, hell no one even knew I was bisexual. All anyone had seen me with were women. What no one knew was that, like most guys, I experimented in Hogwarts. I realized I actually liked being with guys as much as girls, I just didn't make it known.
Anyways, I kept my crush on Alex secret from everyone. I never thought that he would ever look at me in that way. I longed for him for the longest time. Then there was that one time when we were all drunk and I snogged Alex. I apologized the next day, saying it was just a product of the alcohol. Alex believed it of course as we all did things that we might regret that night.
For years I wished that Alex would be mine. Then one day, he was. It was strange. We just met up for some drinks and one thing led to another and then they were kissing. It was the sweetest kiss he had ever had. We ended up kissing and talking for hours that night. I even sang Alex a song, one of my favorites. He seemed to like it as much as I liked singing it.
It's strange how much I think of him now. The feelings came so strongly that they almost overwhelm me. I think, no I know, I love him. I want nothing more than to be with him forever. That thought is kind of rushing things but hey, they are my thoughts. he he he
Well it's getting late. I should go to bed. Gotta big weekend ahead of me. Band practice then a date with Jay.
This will be great.
My thoughts have mostly been on my best friend turned...boyfriend? A man named Alexander Jay Torres. For the longest time he was just my best friend, well one of three. The other two aren't really important right now. Anyways, Alex for a long time was just one of the guys, one of his band mates. It was only after Hogwarts that I noticed how amazingly handsome the man was. I developed a sort of crush for him. I never told him this, hell no one even knew I was bisexual. All anyone had seen me with were women. What no one knew was that, like most guys, I experimented in Hogwarts. I realized I actually liked being with guys as much as girls, I just didn't make it known.
Anyways, I kept my crush on Alex secret from everyone. I never thought that he would ever look at me in that way. I longed for him for the longest time. Then there was that one time when we were all drunk and I snogged Alex. I apologized the next day, saying it was just a product of the alcohol. Alex believed it of course as we all did things that we might regret that night.
For years I wished that Alex would be mine. Then one day, he was. It was strange. We just met up for some drinks and one thing led to another and then they were kissing. It was the sweetest kiss he had ever had. We ended up kissing and talking for hours that night. I even sang Alex a song, one of my favorites. He seemed to like it as much as I liked singing it.
It's strange how much I think of him now. The feelings came so strongly that they almost overwhelm me. I think, no I know, I love him. I want nothing more than to be with him forever. That thought is kind of rushing things but hey, they are my thoughts. he he he
Well it's getting late. I should go to bed. Gotta big weekend ahead of me. Band practice then a date with Jay.
This will be great.