Always [CHASE]

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

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(OOC: Bleeh. Sleepy. Very extremely sleepy.)

[Chase McKinney-Jackson]

Chase hated himself. He kind of just wanted to die at the moment but he knew that wouldn't be the answer. He was depressed, not fucking crazy. Alex was long gone and that was a whole different problem. Actually, it might be the same considering Chase was pretty sure that whole situation was the after effect of what happened with Brent earlier that day.

He had tried different things. He sat curled up on the couch flipping through the channels on the television again for a while. It wasn't long before he decided that wasn't a good idea because most of the things on TV were sappy love stories. He went in the kitchen with the idea to make some kind of food since he hadn't eaten all day, but he really didn't have his appetite. Eventually, Chase ended up on the balcony of their room. He loved outdoors and most of the time just wanted to be with the open breeze and the animals. He tried cuddling Charlie, but he was being difficult at the moment.

In the end, Chase was curled up in the corner of the balcony. His knees were in his chest and tears had been flowing down his face most of the night. He was afraid that Brent would never come back. He was afraid he would go off with Aiden and leave Chase in the dust.

His thoughts were pointless however, when Brent came on the balcony and crouched down in front of Chase. Brent used his nickname. That meant something, right? "Y-you came back..." Chase whispered in a hurt voice. He didn't want to tell Brent about Alex. Not yet at least. He knew he had to. Maybe Brent wouldn't be that mad? Of course he was going to be mad. Chase was so fucking stupid.

Chase had made sure to clean up all the mud... but the memory of his mistake was still clear in his mind. "I-I wasn't sure if you were going to come back." As Chase said it, tears fell out of his eyes. It wasn't the messy kind of crying Brent had done earlier and most of the day. It was more like he couldn't stop the tears from rolling out of his eyes. The anger was gone. Regret and misery had taken its place.

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

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[Chase McKinney-Jackson]

Brent was... crying? He never thought about not coming back? Guilt rose inside of Chase. What would happen when Chase told Brent about Alex? Would be ever forgive him? Would they ever be the same again after this? Chase thought about their plans. The baby that would come any day now. Tommy, Belaya. Everyone. Alex was going to be hated by his friend and probably fiance. Chase wouldn't hate him, but what was the chance that Brent would let Chase ever hang out with Alex again.

Chase reached up withing thinking and wiped the tears out of Brent's eyes, keeping his hand on his cheek. "I love you, Brent. Always have, always will. R-remember that?" Chase stuttered out. He wanted Brent to say it one last time before he hated Chase for the rest of their lives. Even though Chase didn't think he could bare that.

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

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[Chase McKinney-Jackson]

Chase took a deep sigh when Brent said he loved him too. It might be the last time he would ever hear that. He didn't want to tell Brent what happened, but he had to. He couldn't hide it from Brent. Even if he knew that if him and Alex hid it, it would be better for the both of them. It wasn't the type of person Chase was.

"When you left.... I-I was fucked up, Boo." Chase started. "I cried for hours... then I went numb. I think I flipped through the channels on the tv for hours." Chase shook his head, faintly remembering what he did when he didn't want to feel anymore.

"Alex came over... he was fucked up about something too." Chase knew what, but Brent didn't. "I just wanted to feel loved, Boo... I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Chase couldn't actually say what he did. He figured Brent would get the drift. Tears were flowing harder down his face. He wouldn't be able to stop them now.

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

[/i] now, did he?

Brent got to his feet, taking a step away from Chase. Was this how he felt when Brent had cheated on him? Maybe... but Brent felt more angry then hurt. Or maybe he did feel more hurt, but was trying to cover it up.

"You gave me all that shit about the baby? About all of the things we have planned?" he shouted, clenching his jaw and fists in an effort not to punch anything, "You're just as fucking useless as I am!"

Brent had no idea how this was going to work now. Knowing Chase had cheated on him... after everyone telling him how loyal and perfect he was. After believing that shit himself.[/color][/ul]

[Chase McKinney-Jackson]

Chase saw his expression darken and the sobs broke out harder. He couldn't believe he had cheated and with Alex too. It was different if he cheated with someone random. Or... it was in Chase's mind. But his best friend? Not okay. "I wanted to feel loved! You cheated and ran away! Even though I told you to..." Chase said, his eyes showed how sorry he was, but Chase knew it wouldn't help. He fucked up majorly.

"I know! I'm a fucking hypocrite and I hate myself probably as much as you hate me right now. Don't worry." Chase said through the tears as he buried his head into his knees that were crouched into him.
Chase kept mumbling "I'm sorry" into his knees. He was terrified of whatever Brent was going to do. He didn't want to lose Brent, but he wouldn't blame him.

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

[/i] now. Of course, he was still furious, though his anger was directed more towards Alex than Chase. He really shouldn't have left, he could see that now. But how was he supposed to know one of his so called 'friends' were going to waltz in and try something with his fiancé? Exactly. And it hurt.

Brent let out a sigh and ran a hand through his hair. Chase thought he hated him? "Listen... I don't hate you. I can't ever hate you.. It's just... you still did that to me. Like I did to you." Brent sighed again in frustration, he didn't even know what he was trying to say here. But at least he wasn't shouting... it was just seeing Chase in such a state that made Brent want to avoid making him feel any worse.[/color][/ul]

[Chase McKinney-Jackson]

Chase brought his head up from his knees when Brent said he didn't hate him. He didn't? Chase looked up at the love of his life. Afraid that he had thoroughly fucked up their relationship. Brent's anger seemed to... subside a bit though. It seemed to go away a little. Even if just a tad.

"I know I did... And I shouldn't have. It was just... Alex was there." Chase told him. "You know you're the only one I love." It was the truth and Brent should know that. If all the years Chase pinned over Brent didn't tell him that, then there was something wrong. Sure... he had kissed guys during those ten years. He had been trying to forget about Brent. It never worked though.

Chase's eyes widened when he heard a little dinging noise come from the inside of their room. He had bought a muggle cell phone for the family to call when the baby was on the way. No one else had the number.

"Brent..." Chase whispered before freezing up. He didn't move. Brent knew about the cell phone. Probably knew what it was too... But now!?

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

[/i], of all times it could've happened, it just had to be now. So Brent quickly went inside, picked up the phone and brought it back out onto the balcony. Deciding that it would be better if Chase talked, rather than him, Brent answered the call before forcing the phone upon Chase.[/color][/ul]

[Chase McKinney-Jackson]

Chase flinched as he heard the snapping come from Brent's mouth. He thought the anger was gone. But apparently it wasn't. Chase wouldn't blame him. He couldn't blame him. Chase had fucked up big time and didn't expect Brent to be not mad.

He didn't have time to freak out about it, though. Because the phone that was ringing was shoved into his hands. Chase's eyes were big when Brent handed it to him and he felt like he didn't know what to do. "H-hello?" Chase stuttered into the phone. He heard the faint question of whether or not this was Chase. He muttered a yes in response before hearing what he had already knew she was going to say. The baby was coming.

Chase told her, who he thought was the mom of the girl, that they would be on there way as soon as possible. He snapped the phone shut and looked up at Brent. A faint smile was on his face even though the tear stains were strong on his cheeks. He stood up quickly and grabbed Brent's hand even though he knew they were in a fight. "Our baby is coming."

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

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[Chase McKinney-Jackson]

Chase was glad that Brent didn't pull away his hand. It was progress. Maybe this would make everything just perfectly fine. The babies room was basically completely done. There were certain things they hadn't done because they were afraid of guessing the sex wrong. Even though Chase and Alex had gone shopping for a baby girl. It was what Chase wanted. He wouldn't be mad if it was a boy. He would love them the same.

"Right now." Chase said, smiling. "We're doing this together. Whatever happens. We're together." Chase might have been talking about the baby at the moment, but it was a double meaning for their relationship. Then Chase didn't care that Brent was probably pissed off at him. He leaned forward and kissed him. He kissed him as hard as he possibly could. "I love you, Boo." He whispered as he pulled away. Smiling full on before apparating Brent away to Mungo's hospital. Chase hoped to god Alex wasn't working.

[Brent McKinney-Jackson]

[/i] been apart, had they? Still, Brent could hardly say no at this moment in time. Although he still wasn't entirely happy (and who could really blame him for that?), Brent would still be with Chase. Always.

It took Brent a little by surprise when Chase kissed him, though he didn't pull away. Feeling Chase's lips against his again relaxed him a little. Brent had missed it a lot. He did his best to ignore the fact that the last people either of them kissed had actually been Alex or Murph.

"I love you too." Brent sighed, his lips twitching upwards into a momentary smile before he and Chase apparated to St Mungo's.[/color][/ul]